It Kicks Like A Sleep Twitch....

Editors blow my mind, there powerful, intense noise grips me has me lost in there sound for days - leaves me in dreamscape as I drown in there sonic sounds and deep dark lyrics....they create such powerful vivid images, its just magical. In This Light And On This Day is a reflection of how Tom Smith see's London, the place he now calls home.

Tom's voice is haunting, desperate, beautiful, angry and heartbreaking. He wraps the bad up in dark danceable disco melodies...its a big epic sound, without the need to be big. Ed drums with a purpose, dragging those songs to life, smacking the fear of god into the pounding beats, Russ with his filthy dirty basslines, and Chris on the funky pop sythns, with a twisted distorted feel making nothing pretty.

"You ran with the dead today, through the cemetries where the ghosts still play

The more you ran love got further away, One look and I saw inside, I saw everything you died to hide

You were the truth when you lied"

Glastonbury Memories

Well, as per it came and went and i've gone from never wanting to go again (this comes from being UTTERLY ruined) to wanting to be there right now...

Its like a utopia, its a city in its own right, you walk up that hill and look over at the sprawling metropolis of a site and im always amazed and in awe, for a few moments I stand and look just to take it in...I wish I could bottle it and share it all around.

Its not without its celebrity kuntah swanning around, or drunken/drugged idots but it is unique and that is what without doubt keeps punters going back all the time.

Had some major belly laughs, I mean where could you lay in a bed, stinking, rotten, sweaty in your clothes and talk about having to let go of a chance with *someone* coz of previous said state? Where else would someone wander past your wagon at 1am singing The River, which prompts you to sing the following line back and then both get told off as there are children sleeping, as it dawns on us we are in the "quiet" field - sorry. FOAD it was funny.

Had some visitors to Camp Quinah, where we sang, Keane and Pulp and watched people dance like Jarvis Cocker and break our toliet in the motorhome...

Off for a wander on thursday, to get a henna tattoo amongst other things, saying FOAD. Perfect. Having to explain wasnt as pleasurable!

I have to say The Boss bored us shitless, which was a shame as he was someone I really wanted to see, but he churned out a far too obscure set list which I think let a lot of people down. I really had to force myself to Dance In The Dark after 2.5hrs of waiting for it.

Cracking sets from Tings, White Lies, Friendly Fires. Lady GAGA can suck my arse she was total shit, and I didnt wanna see her fanny lips particulary. Glastonbury for me was about ONE band this year and that was BLUR, we braved the barrier for this, at times I wanted to die but it was nothing short of epic, having seen these guys many times in there prime and infact before, I had essentially got over the loss of them. As they sung tune after tune it became all too apparent what a gaping hole they had left when they disbanded all those years ago.

Tender was 8 mintues of sheer bliss, with a crowd the size of an ocean singing and swaying singing back to Damon his sweeter than sweet lyrics of this touching song. Its a memory that I wont be forgetting thats for sure.

I hope to share these same joys again with my friends, and maybe a few more people for good measure.

Until then thanks Glastonbury, my 2009 holiday!

Pyramid

Oh well the weeks have rolled by and its nearly time to head for the Pyramid! (STAGE!). Seriously I can't wait...friends, music, pear cider and a motorhome life doesn't get much better than that does it?

Glastonbury has such a laid back vibe (fuck all to do with hippies) there is none of this rushing from stage to stage so you see 50 bands to get your monies worth, it has a quiet hussle of people just enjoying themselves...it really is a special place.

Oh yeh check this band out, I love there new EP.

http://www.myspace.com/cutcity

Listening to: Escape The Nest - Editors

My Babies

I took the time finally to scan some photos of the kids from there younger days, and it caught me off guard a little at just how fast there time growing has been...its just flown by.

I hope in future years they will tell me they had a happy childhood, having always done the best we can by them and they will always have Mum & Dad waiting in the wings.

I'm emmensely proud of them, they are well rounded confident individuals with heaps of potienal which Im sure will be fulfilled in there coming years.

Children are a real gift and should be cherished, I know I cherish mine.

Listening to: Little Boots - Stuck On Repeat

Cake

Some people seem to eat so much of it. SLABS infact.

reminds me I must get a cakey for my daughter, its her 16th Birthday tomorrow! 16yrs god they have totally flown....she has grown into a quite wonderful young lady.




Listening to: Go To Hell - David Ford

Lost

I thought it was great to hear that Coldplay will be giving away a live cd to every fan that see's them live this summer (not at festies) just a little payback to fans in these tough economic times. Also available as a download on the Bands official forum.




Feeling a little better.

Uh huh, I gotcha - Im just waiting for the shine to wear off.

See Jesus, see Judas.

Listening to - Lost x - Coldplay ft Jay Z

Nothing

Horrid day, headache that wouldnt shift and a nauseous feeling to add to that. So it was a day of nothingness bleh....I really dont like these kinds of days.

This never fails to bring a smile, so glad its back this year!



Listening to : Love Is Here - Starsailor

Vile

Why are some people unbearabley vile.....

Everything about them is vile - yet they swan around like they are something "special"

Pie-ella.

Peace.

Listening to: Underwear - Pulp

Smells

Funny how they can affect your mood, or take you back to a moment in your life. Cut grass is amongst my fav's with the smell of a freshly decorated room - or baking bread mmmmmm then the smell of Piz Biun suntan lotion ahhh just lovely.



Listening to: Fall Into Place - Apartment

Today

I feel free from a lot of bad feeling, brightness ensues and a summer of fun and happiness.





I can already hear the laughter.





Can you?

Listening to: Prince - When Doves Cry

1.

1. I'd not embarrass myself.

2. I do actually have a reason too!

3. There are a few that are the same.

4. Nothing.

5. Define "Friendship"

In that order KTHXBAI! AWE

Current obcession

Lambs Lettuce I adore it! Served with either a dash of balsamic and some pepper, with on the vine tomatoes or some house dressing (pizza express brand!) YUM YUM YUM!

Listening to : Mirror Image - The Horrors

Fading

I'll lose this I always have, I'll always let you down
I'll lose this I always have, I'll always let you down

Make your way up to the stars, It's there where you belong

I'll lose this I always have, I'll always let you down

Waiting, you are
Fading, you are
Slowly drift off to sleep

Waiting, you are
Fading, you are
Slowly drift off to sleep

Waiting, you are
Fading, you are
Slowly drift off to sleep

Fill your life with something else baby....

I am I playing this out for the stars, is it a way to forsee a way through

Why does....

Everything in loife have to be a battle sometimes, its very wearing.....

Let your good heart....

Oh yeh and Zedge and Beth rock, you keep it real in EVERY sense....

"You let the dark in somehow...."

"Sharks swim around your drowning soul..."

"Some things do matter, a price to pay...."

So Lets Not Pretend.....

Love is the end.....

Your the swing set, and im the kid that falls......

Phew its been a while, again not really having the inclination to write.

Its been a strange few weeks, Mum having a cancer scare, Chris being made redundant, broken friendships (well what I thought was a "friendship") and new ones.

I've felt quite bizarre, how deeply hurt I feel I didnt expect to feel like this even now weeks on - How could this friend find no time, (other than to book a trip) to talk to people that had cared and shared so much?

I dont want to dwell on it too much as its unhealthy, I look at this friends face and all I see is a "fakeness" and feel utter hate towards her everything seems so "pretend". In an attempt to see if I was being irrational I opened my situation up to a few totally netural friends - laying out as best both sides of this stone, and ultimately no one said I had over reacted, maybe in degree a little but thats me, friends ARE important and finding out after 4yrs you are only an aqquaintance who is *handy* for gigs is a hard blow. I even contemplate not going to see our favourite band because of this, I mean ofc I lose as she will swan along nose in the air like nothing matters, all part of the pretence. Some people have no soul, and will trample on anyone or anything to "live the dream" thats life I guess.....but shove your dreams if thats what kindof person it makes you become. YOURS FAITHFULLY.......

I *heart* Carly.....

Anyhow moving on....

Had a fab weekend travelling to a friends for a sleep over and then a fab day at Eastbourne, the sun was glorious just to sit on a beach full of pebbles was wonderful, eating fish and chips and talking utter crap....taking snaps to relive the laughs at a later date ahh top stuff sometimes its all about the simple things in life and ofc stuffed foxes!

Eastbourne Coastline, ahh i *heart* the UK.




Glastonbury is creeping up! Uber Uber looking forward to it WAGONS roll! Small convey of 2 rocking into that field! will be a slightly different experience but im taking it head on.....lots of planning still to come.

Til the next inclination I guess!

Listening to : Rewind - Paolo Nutini

Gigs

Hmm yeh got a few coming up, always good to have a few on the sometimes bland horizon of funny ole loife..




Saw Frankmusik on Friday boy totally blown away by how much he was loved (espesh considering it was a London crowd and a free do!) we had a right little shin dig!

The Boxer Rebellion on Tuesday in the lovely Dingwalls venue, I do adore Camden 20 music venues in one area thats sicker than sick by a few miles in my book! Boxer's always been a bit unfortunate imo they are truely a cracking band with a good sound.

Then a new band called The Chapman Family they fall between Joy Divison and Sonic Youth, they make an awfully good noise. Can't wait!

In other news.....

I have been a weed and given in to Twitter which i swore blind I wasnt joining! - tweet tweet!



Neil Young confirmed for Glasto OH FUCKING YES! EPIC EPIC EPIC!





Listening to: The Boxer Rebellion - Forces

Dropping by....

Been a while, being honest havent been fucked to write fuck all about my loife!


Have been following my beloved band Keane around over a span of 3 weeks (not at all dates but it was spread out over 3 weeks) which was good one at the early stage of the machine in motion, which was my best gig until the mighty mcmightyness of Ze 02 Arena Londres! Going on tour for me is a few days to forget all my woes and worries and have fun, generally its a laugh a min, with some of my dear friends that ive had the pleasure to meet along the way we say cunt lots, im personally in the process of getting as many people as I can to use it - im a bad ass really....

Its always good to see your band go from the small intimate to the glory and lavishiness of the big arenas, something Keane pull off pretty damn convincingly. Newcastle being my first on the tour which was everything and more - everything slipped into place Gold Jackets, massive light curtains the stubtley of the b stage with the regal pipes of Chappers ringing out around the Arenas, wowed all those watching him. I find on the whole the Northern gigs are much more rawkus and people go to be involved as apposed to London etc etc who go to be impressed (maybe im generalising but i've been to a hell of a lot of gigs and seen it). We had the best time dancing with all the geordies. The only time I heard the heartbreakingly beautiful rendition of EW, Tom brings so much more to the song than Gwen ever could.

Subsquent gigs for what ever reason just didnt hit the mark, laid back crowds, I mean sure they love the band but im a sucker for the passion in peoples eyes, played out with dancing and singing every word as if your life depended on it. Its one reason I'd love to see the band in a Latin American venue just to feel that the ott sense of love the band gets there. We enjoy the gigs nevertheless but its hard when you have corpses around you who look at you like you should be locked up for dancing or leaping...no joke!

After the July 07 trauma of the 02 we decided we wouldnt stand we would get seated, but its sod's law that they go and add another date so we stood for the final night of the tour, first night was NICE, we had a meal rocked up royally late and chatted to those in the queue that had been there since umm ooooo 6am! We took our seats in a nice block with a great view. Man im only ever going in a seat if I have no legs, even then I think I chance a roll to the barrier! Tom was struggling with a terrible cold and his voice was suffering badly, he pushed through and as per gave his all but although seriously packed to the rafters the atmoshpere was not there, we wanted to stand and dance but were acutely aware that others around us werent really digging that until the ole SOWK was rolled out - then we stood and danced for the final 4 songs. Its all an experience they say but one I wont be repeating.

Now friday, if you are ever looking for shade and light in 2 gigs on the bounce there it was - various traffic problems and not having the will to live meant I didnt arrive to q until 12.30ish already a crowd of the regs where there. We were greeted by a small group that I chat to on MSN so lovely to meet Dorr, a cooler than cool chick from Estionia, a real doll and the sophisiciated Ava( who is nearly 30! but looks like 21!) all the girls are great, come from all over the world one of thee coolest things Keane does brings us in from all over. If I ever owned a venue (which I would do if I had SERIOUS amounts of cash) the way to get in would certainly favour the fan, instead of quite frankly risking there health and saftey. We were hearded in like lambs going to market then, its a crazy mad dash into the arena and standing area of the venue, anyhoo we ended up on Tims side. Boy from the min the band came on stage with Tom strutting along the crowds getting them to rise to his baying requests for noise and clapping the room was fucking electric such a total contrast from the night before. They rip into The Lovers Are Losing and we obilge them with dancing and singing...the top end of the setlist is rentless in its pace and track after track rolls on then comes our personal fav "Again And Again" 'was it all in real time, or was it all in my mind....gets us shouting the lyrics at the band telling them we get it, we feel it feeding them our enjoyment. Tom adds such a bite and vitrol to some of the lyrics its hard to not want to scream back at him, I dred to think what he thinks when he sees us almost leaping over the barrier singing and dancing..."when you are alone and afraid"... I turn to see the masses having a party, arms pointing Hitleresq at Chappers ahh its such a great site to see.

The sense of unity you can feel at a gig is quite staggering....how is that? its quite magical eh... It was in all a great gig which I shant bore you with but band and fans alike left the gig on an ulitmate high....

New Music

Not often you hear some sounds out of Oz, well dig this Empire Of The Sun are most awesome - there dreamy, synthy pop is right up my street, uncomplicated sounds..just perfick!

www.myspace.com/empireofthesunsound  

Also this lady, her delicate intricate vocal is just beautiful and charming, Priscilla Ahn is her name this is her space www.myspace.com/priscillaahn

Ahhh music one of the biggest pleasures in my loife.

Loss

So this blog begins with the loss of a family member to Cancer which she had fought for over 8 years with such bravery and positivity, loife seems so unkind at times - Her daughter unable to accept the defeat to this disease, had to be pulled from her side so her body could be taken by the funeral directors, this leaves me with such vivid images it makes me cry....I myself couldnt see her in her final hours/days I have done this before and its a mental image that has stayed, I couldnt do it again. I battled with this decision as she had asked to see me, so instead I wrote her a short note, just saying she was an inspiration and that I loved her...which I know she read, its a comfort to me. I saw her Daughter on Friday, and the pain was etched on her face and in her eyes and there was nothing I could do or say, it left my heart heavy.

I have had 5 people in the family/or friends die since early Decemeber and it makes me think how fragile life is and how fast it at times all moves and how wrapped up in my own life I get. Having had my Dad near to death last year it deeply affected me, I felt quite crushed at the thought of losing him, Dad's are always there right?.... Sorry its isnt a better read just wanted to type a few words.

Rest In Peace Joan...xx

FOG!

Blimey the fog has dropped in from nowhere!

I love Winter, nothing nicer than shutting your front door coming into a warm house, cooking a nice bit of grub umm something with MASH and snuggling down infront of the TV/interwebz for the evening.

Took this snap of Lennon while over the local park today, not particularly great but its all ACTION


Park was empty, there was a lovely silence over there floor was crunchy under foot only sounds where Lennon's thundering gallop as he rentlessly chased and fetched his ball, and the birds on the half frozen lake ahhhh lovely.



Listening to: Lost Without You - Stephen Fretwell (Magpie is an outstanding album)

Oh Yeh....

For us Keane fans, how PERFECT SYMMETRY is this scarf? spotted while in H&M yesterday! It cried out to me MERCH! MERCH! MERCH! I didnt buy one as it would be just too sad...

Internet Dealings!

Man, i've spent 3hrs on the phone (at my cost) to companies that give me a piss poor service while I pay for the pleasure!

Firstly my ISP AOL, since 2 weeks before Christmas it is has been so slow! like dial up speed, I mean a girl cant function with speeds like that! I put it down to people maybe being on Christmas break etc etc...but no this was a joke so I called the dreaded call center conveniently situated in India, where they are like robots reading from a card taking me through the same steps 20 times all of which make NO difference, now im not computer illiterate Im actually very savvy so im explaining that infact i've actually done all this already to no avail, but oh no in order for my issue to be escalated I have to do them again (well I dont I just "say" im doing them) SIDE NOTE: they use the word escalate to make me feel important! So im rasied to level 2 technical support (woooo fucking hoooo) I decide to get tough on the phone and be a bit short with this guy, we go through several pointless processes nothing changes or improves, he then tells me there is nothing he can do so I ask, where does this leave me? paying for an internet service that I cant use? he replies "I dont know Miss Kerry" by this point im losing the will to live....anyhow I ask to be put through to "accounts and billing" (im stuck in a contract for 8 more months at this point) Once this guy picks up the phone I tell him that Im recording this call as Im considering going to Watchdog BBC regarding the level of service (along with a few other customers) he then is as helpful as Florence Nightingale! he was telling me to try this techincal guy once more and if he cant help they will waiver the contract fee (get out early fee of £285!) speak to an irish fella who tells me he is on it, and to call him back in 24hrs if no change he will authorise the fee to be waived and I will be free. Well within seconds my internet speed was 5meg! compared with the 300 - 400 kbps I was getting. Complaining is the only way to get anything done sadly...

Check your internet speed here: www.speedtest.net

Next was Sky, paying £58 per month for this pleasure, dont watch half of the channels and the sky plus box is freezing and generally playing up I called about this previously and was told it was out of warrenty etc etc and it would basically cost me telephone numbers to fix so this call was either they help me out or I would have it disconnected. As soon as I mentioned that I was considering going to Virgin (which I cant actually do, no cable laid here) the girl at Sky bent over backwards, helping me choose exactly what channels I wanted etc etc got my package down to £40 per month plus I have a Sky chappie coming here today, with new box/dish whichever is at fault all for NADA not a bean, or PENNY!

Yes to people power I say! Its boring and hard work but get complaining.



Listening to: YHTMA - Keane (Live in Europe)

Planning

God I hate food shopping.

Anyway doing a bit of planning, heading off to see Keane in Feb so booking a few hotels and trains. Decided to wash down the path and around my door before going shopping bit of pine disinfectant wash away the cat spray, then left for the shops came back to a wonderful "break your neck" skating rink. WIN.

Listened to an awesome band today. http://www.myspace.com/wewerepromisedjetpacks particulary Quiet Little Voices.

I dont feel I can spend any money for months.

No More Lie In's!

So made it back today for some more musing's and other rubbish!

Have quite easily slipped into going to bed at 2am and not rousing until 11am but im making the most of it as its all back to normal come the 5th of Jan. There is clearly something to be said for routines.

Decorations already down, decided at the same time to have a deep clean in the living room boy the dust (shame) found a blast from the past my first *pricey* camera, took many a noice shots of many bands check her out!

I have decided now at 38 I need an eye test, been squinting at things far away so that makes me ummm short sighted (I have never understood all that bull). Spent some of the day sorting music out that I had meant to deal with prior to Christmas malarky but it didnt happen....some new stuff and some old that im burning from CD (a labourious job).

Rock Band will make me a RAWK star.

Watch this space for news on my special first purchase of 2009!

Listening to: Ladyhawke - My Delirium

Trying It Out

So after a failed attempt at 365 I thought I would give blogging a spin - I dont know how it will pan out but i'll give it a go. Hope to share things I like and things I dont, loife, lurve, happiness, sadness and whatever else along the way!

I found a great new feature on my camera today, widescreen setting! thats always a bonus in loife.

Christmas has gone and New Year is here, no resolutions for me they only lead to disappointment, its an extra pressure in my loife I can do without fank oo. I guess I have some goals for this year but for now they can stay under wraps.

Listening to: Staring At The Ceiling - Keane

Craving: Some Fruit!

Widescreen