Loss

So this blog begins with the loss of a family member to Cancer which she had fought for over 8 years with such bravery and positivity, loife seems so unkind at times - Her daughter unable to accept the defeat to this disease, had to be pulled from her side so her body could be taken by the funeral directors, this leaves me with such vivid images it makes me cry....I myself couldnt see her in her final hours/days I have done this before and its a mental image that has stayed, I couldnt do it again. I battled with this decision as she had asked to see me, so instead I wrote her a short note, just saying she was an inspiration and that I loved her...which I know she read, its a comfort to me. I saw her Daughter on Friday, and the pain was etched on her face and in her eyes and there was nothing I could do or say, it left my heart heavy.

I have had 5 people in the family/or friends die since early Decemeber and it makes me think how fragile life is and how fast it at times all moves and how wrapped up in my own life I get. Having had my Dad near to death last year it deeply affected me, I felt quite crushed at the thought of losing him, Dad's are always there right?.... Sorry its isnt a better read just wanted to type a few words.

Rest In Peace Joan...xx