Your the swing set, and im the kid that falls......

Phew its been a while, again not really having the inclination to write.

Its been a strange few weeks, Mum having a cancer scare, Chris being made redundant, broken friendships (well what I thought was a "friendship") and new ones.

I've felt quite bizarre, how deeply hurt I feel I didnt expect to feel like this even now weeks on - How could this friend find no time, (other than to book a trip) to talk to people that had cared and shared so much?

I dont want to dwell on it too much as its unhealthy, I look at this friends face and all I see is a "fakeness" and feel utter hate towards her everything seems so "pretend". In an attempt to see if I was being irrational I opened my situation up to a few totally netural friends - laying out as best both sides of this stone, and ultimately no one said I had over reacted, maybe in degree a little but thats me, friends ARE important and finding out after 4yrs you are only an aqquaintance who is *handy* for gigs is a hard blow. I even contemplate not going to see our favourite band because of this, I mean ofc I lose as she will swan along nose in the air like nothing matters, all part of the pretence. Some people have no soul, and will trample on anyone or anything to "live the dream" thats life I guess.....but shove your dreams if thats what kindof person it makes you become. YOURS FAITHFULLY.......

I *heart* Carly.....

Anyhow moving on....

Had a fab weekend travelling to a friends for a sleep over and then a fab day at Eastbourne, the sun was glorious just to sit on a beach full of pebbles was wonderful, eating fish and chips and talking utter crap....taking snaps to relive the laughs at a later date ahh top stuff sometimes its all about the simple things in life and ofc stuffed foxes!

Eastbourne Coastline, ahh i *heart* the UK.




Glastonbury is creeping up! Uber Uber looking forward to it WAGONS roll! Small convey of 2 rocking into that field! will be a slightly different experience but im taking it head on.....lots of planning still to come.

Til the next inclination I guess!

Listening to : Rewind - Paolo Nutini